Agrivation and rest

I'm home sick today. the first full day of it; i'd taken off a total of two blocks for the enitre year. none of it has been because of fatigue, thank God. although i have been really tired, it because i have this reoccuring cold. it keeps coming back, although weaker every time, like the axe murderer in a series of cheesy horror films. hey, cool analogy, i should use that in English. but yeah, i got up this morning and felt not so good, my mouth was all gunky and my nose stuffy. after i brushed my teeth i got n my knees by my bed and prayed about whether or not i should stay home from school.
i decided that if i didn't take today off, when i wasn't doing too much in my classes (except i have to finish up and history test, but that wont take long) i might miss more later, or on more important days.
i hate missing school. i really hate it. but hey, maybe God is showing me that i am not yet invincible. just because i'm not over chronic fatigue doesn't mean it's going to be a breeze form here on out.

Homecoming

Under the last minute coercment of a girl in my history class, i went to homecoming on friday night. the theme was "pure imagination" from willy wonka and the chocolate factory. the tickets were shiny golden tickets, which was cool. they also had graphic dance regulations on the back which was... interesting. I went with a group of 8, including me. i didn't know anyone in our group except for the girl in my hisotry class, with whom i'm not great friends anyways. we ate at Hinode, a japaneese steak house. the chef was nice and funny (they make the food in front of you, at your table) and food food was incredibly good. i'm drooling just thinking about it. i kept spilling fried rice all over my dress, which was rather funny. overall, i didn't like my group all that much. not to sound mean or snobby, because they were really nice. but they spent most of dinner complaining about people they didn't like, basically gossip. i was pretty quiet during dinner, piping up every now and then when they would mention movies or something like that. once we got to the dance i ran into a few friends of mine, and while my group went into the dance floor (they didn't abandon me, i kind of drifted away from them by choice, and they didn't seem offended,) i hung out with people from FCA. i spent the rest of the evening with that group, and had a good time, and didn't see my original group again until the end of the dance.
as far as dancing goes, my new group and i pretty much had the same ideas- the robot, disco, and some random cool moves we would do on the outside fringe when the mood struck us. it was fun. i didn't have to see too much of the nasty stuff since most of that was in the middle of the dance mosh pit.
my original group went to see the corpse bride after the dance; i went to a friends house instead where a couple of people were hanging out. we thought about watching a movie but decided we were all too tired and went home.

moral of the story: dances can be fun, but only when you go with your friends. oh, and i had a cool teal dress. the only pictures i have are of me at home in my dress, which i will try to post some time.

Joy in Life

I'm just reflecting on how God has totally changed my perspective over the last few years. when i was going through a really rough time in my life and suffered from depression, my depression was more than mental. although it is a medican condition for which i needed the help that i got, and my medication did help, it was also a spiritual condition. i had no joy in God and absoloutly no passion for life. it's crazy how God chooses to bring us through the darkest points in our lives only to bring out in us our deepest love and desire for him. it's kind of funny, i remember back then one day picking up a book on our shelf called "spiritual depression" by D. martin lloyd jones, and almost reading it. i put is back and decided i really didn't need it. it wouldn't help me. then at convention this year in a workship, i forget which one, one of the speakers mentioned it as being a really good book that helped him get through some depression. pretty crazy.

just a little of whats going on

I am getting a bit sick. i wanted to come home today after first block but i stuck through it and felt better as the day went on. so i'm very glad i didn't miss. i'm not going to miss tomorrow either. i just wont be very pleasent for my first two blocks :-P our walk for life team really needs to raise more money. i guess i'm sort of in charge of that. got my senior head shots taken this afternoon. signed up for the ACT in october. history test on friday or monday. chem test on friday. glazed in ceramics. aparently there will be another relient k concert sometime in october. i want to go. need to do some homework. cool convention pictures on rys website. i miss convention. can't wait for next year's.
Everyone go to see you at the pole on wed!!!

First will and testement

since i have never made a will before it didn't seem accurate to call it the last one.
in the event of my untimely demise... well, i figured it was best to have these things sorted out.
first, i leave my toothbrush and chapstick(s) to Erin.
Angela gets my kitties, assuming hers don't kill them. whatever else, just keep them away from the Grotenhuis's.
Sam, my stand up kitchen-aid mixer, goes to Mark, so that he may make many a sweet potatoe waffle with it and pick up many a lady at Covenant.
Angela also gets my movies and my Audrey Hepburn poster and purse.
Charlie inheirits Mark and Matt, except that Erin and Angela have the shared responsibility of monitering their love lives (Don't let Mark get carried away with the waffles)
Mike gets all of my CD's and the responsibilty of finding my Relient K CD.
finally, Matt can have all of my books, textbooks, and Mr. Wilbur.

Now that we have all of these things sorted out, let me know if i have overlooked anything.