Wanderlust

Why do i intentionally think about things that depress me? such as finishing high school. ok, so i am only finishing up my junior year now, but i suppose it is better to start preparing myself for it now rather than next year at this time. i am quite grateful that i have yet another year left.
i'm getting off topic... i was thinking about depressing subjects. i was just reading about a senior who had his picture taken with another guy drinking their last school milks. i am now rather emotional. i don't want it to end. i want it to last much, much longer. i know we all complain about it all the time, but in reality we cherish the tedious assignments, the gross lunches, getting our friends to carry our trays back, pulling late-nighters to finish reasearch papers, and all those school funtions like How Day and Amaizing Day. these are "the good 'ol days," that we can never have back. we can never have these days back. it's worth repeating. i'm looking forward to college; i know it is still yet to come. at the end of a church camp i know i'll be comming back next year. at the end of my senior year, i will never be able to be a high schooler again. it literally hurts to think about that. i pray to God every day that he will lead me to live every day in light of that fact. to use it to glorify and enjoy him to the best of my ability and not have any regrets when these days are gone. i want ot be able to come back, but to quote the great Tolkien- "That is not for us to decide; all we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."
i have one year left to live that out. i pray that i do.

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